Remington Modular Combat Shotgun

reflections

I am also: 1 year before the final school closure. barely a month before I'm an adult. and more and more I realize you were there live a. a whole life and it belongs only to you. But what begins to live with one?

how many times I've played role-playing and looking forward to the many choices. "That is so real!" "You can let the whole development of character" and now I'm sitting here and suddenly I will not even go so many ways, so many can "skills" to acquire. I'm terribly free. everyone knows "the sims", each is created before such a figure and a small history considered to have determined which job, what clothes, what interests, what sexual affection, how much money, what kind of an apartment of the sim should. incredibly cool anyway.

suddenly, but as this sim caro. not only heard "Flupp" as he was from child to adult. more surprising that it now is there. well, some things are certain. - Only what? even the most essential - his musical tastes - can be selected.

there is no question of who I am. there is no answer like: "be yourself" I'm the player, I choose - god same - as this has to be a sim.

there is no internal I very deeply in me that is waiting to be found. there is only one calibrated personality matrix. and this calibration is in my hand.

is how do I know who I want to be? should I have to do to shape itself, have not spiritual one that has some ideas? some ethics? But if this spirit in me is, then where are his ideas that come his ethics, but when that which is to be I have not even exist? when what I should be only be formed when either?

>> You throw me into confusion and even desperation \u0026lt;\u0026lt;

it's all about fun, you know? since there's no 'meaning of life' or any crap like that, it's all about fun, isn't it? so why the hell shall i worry about, who i want to be. see, as long as you laugh, everything is allright, right? see, no one really cares about you anyways. no, that's no self-pity, it's just reality and you know what? i'm glad things work out that way. i'm glad. if it wasn't like this, if it really made a difference, who i am, if the world really - you know, like cared_, if i really mattered, how the hell could i be able to take all the responsibility? is it ok, to say, senslessness provides freedom? i do think so. at least, it's a great attitude to get along.

unglücklicherweise autosuggestion works only sometimes.
confused, as always.